As I’m packing up my apartment – I keep finding little pieces of paper that I wrote on over the years and I want to remember some of these words but I don’t really want to keep the pieces of paper. I am de-cluttering after all!!
We take journeys in life.
When do they start?
Some may say when we are born.
Some may say when we begin to make adult choices.
I say when you make the decision to let yourself FEEL everything that is offered to you.
Even now… I try to avoid the topic at hand – I’m starting to let myself fall in love with the guy playing pool. I am because of the way he laughs – the stories he tells me – the shrug he often gives – his blond eye lash in his left eye lash.
— this was written a few winters ago when I was in the midst of an amazing love affair. I will always be grateful for the “iron sculptor” and the gifts we shared with one another. I send him love and light – right now, where ever he is.
I receive Daily Quotes from Abraham as told thru Esther Hicks. For those who don’t know them, I invite you to check out their website: http://www.abraham-hicks.com
This is today’s quote:
Be easy about it. Don’t rush into things. Savor them more. Make more plans and be more deliberate and specific about the plans that you are making, and in all that you do, let your dominant intent be to find that which pleasures you as you imagine it. Let your desire for pleasure, your desire for feeling good, be your only guiding light. As you seek those thoughts that feel good, you will always be in vibrational harmony with the Energy that is your Source. And under those conditions, only good can come to you, and only good can come from you.
— Abraham
Perfect for me to read this Monday morning – I only have 20 more days in my apartment. I woke up this morning to the sun shining through the windows.
My apartment is a mess – and I know this one reason why my head feels so out of control. I keep wanting to paint to release what’s going on and I can’t find the inspirations. I keep wanting to have sex to distract me but I’m not really attracted to anyone right now. I keep wanting to get drunk to forget for a few minutes. I keep wanting to KNOW what’s going to happen when I leave this apartment.
I keep wanting to …wanting … WANTING!! And this is what needs to shift …. I am not interested living in a state of WANTING!
I am interested in living a state of “being me.”
Feeling good being me – when the want thoughts come into play this is when I begin to “Not Feel so Good” — and letting go of those thoughts are the “tricky” ones!! And … as much as I know I can call friends to talk to, share my feelings and my tears — ultimately, I must find the space within myself to be at peace with my life. my choices. my feelings.
SHIT!!!!! Life is such an interesting adventure! Let’s always remember that its just life and I am free to live it as best I can.
Right now, I am in the midst of letting go a way of life that I’ve had for almost 16 years! I am moving out of my apartment in the East Village – this apartment I found when I moved here in 1994. This apartment where I discovered the ideas of Magic Passion Love. This apartment where I experienced some amazing party moments. This apartment where I have cried and released the pain of life. This apartment where I lived with the coolest dog. This apartment where I realized my sexual essence. This apartment where I shared the NYC experience with over 40 people I call my “boarders” …. YEAH … this is a pretty intense time.
However, I always say, “relationships don’t have to last forever!” …. and letting it all go leads to having it all.
I think one of the biggest aspects of this whole moment is time is there is so much of the UNKNOWN before me. I have to step back and think back to when I was moving to New York City– there was also a lot of UNKNOWN then and look how it turn out – it turned out just fine! SO …. trust that I am on the right path and all that I need Always comes to me! This means, money – romantic love – creative inspiration – business partners – clients/customers – emotional support and artistic success!
Its ok to let it go — it’s ok.
—– gratitude is magic ——
grateful to do this list even if it means I’m procrastinating packing &/or painting
grateful my stuff is selling little by little
grateful I have access to a car during this month to help with the move
grateful for being offered my own bedroom for the next few months
grateful for so much support
grateful for a weird night last night not turning out what I expected
grateful to release more and more expectations
grateful to be getting more specific about what I want
grateful to let go of the Need to Know
grateful I am in my 40s!
grateful for getting up and going to Creative Light Service
grateful to run into FCW I know there
grateful to share the ideas with MPL with more people
grateful to have the time right now to be me
grateful for knowing so many lightworkers
grateful to be grateful
I welcome change and rejoice in new adventures. I put my best foot forward. I look great and feel great and radiate these good feelings out into the world. I am ready for Life and I know Life loves me.
I have the Louise Hay Yearly Affirmation calendar and I’m so grateful that I manifested this at the M&S workshop last month – it’s really helps reading a positive affirmation every day, it helps to call/text people when you need a boost of positive energy, it helps to understand that the naysayers adds to the movement of the dream and it helps to always see/feel the BIG PICTURE!
I woke up this morning at dawn – snapped this picture because i want to always remember this wonderful view from my east village apartment. Then I fell back asleep and slept until 10:30! It was really hard for me to get out of bed because of all of the work I need to do in the next few weeks. However, just before I fell back asleep – I texted two friends that I was having a little bit of a freak about the upcoming changes in my life. So when I woke up, I had two amazing texts: “Yes, you are.” and “Deep breathing…the Universe supports u and ur choices…all is well”
Getting those texts helped me shift my vibrational energy back into alignment with my Magic Passion Love.
The next few weeks are going to be opportunities for me to understand the importance of staying aligned with my personal energy source … and trust that the sun will always rise no matter where I’m sleeping. I’ll always have a wonderful view if I choose to see it.
I never knew there were so many songs with my name!!
I went to a karokee party the other night and there was a song by Micheal Nesmith called “Joanne” and I was like what?! It was the craziest song ever ….I couldn’t believe I’ve never heard of it. So days later, I’m on YouTube and search for this song and it’s comes up a lot! So many people love it – it’s one of “Nez” big hits!
The really crazy thing was – there were a few other bands with songs about Joanne as well!
I love when this kinda shit happens – You learn a word and it pops up! You have a “aha” moment and something switches! You remember how important it is to sing songs about YOURSELF!!
What songs have your name in them?
Sing a song about you today!!
Many people who order their lives rightly in all other ways are kept in poverty by their lack of gratitude.
The daily practice of gratitude is one of the conduits by which your wealth will come to you. Wallace Wattles
Whatever we think about and thank about we bring about. Dr. John Martini
Our job is not to figure out the how. The how will show up out of a commitment and belief in the what. Jack Canfield
Everyone visualizes whether he knows it or not. Visualizing is the great secret of success.
We all possess more power and greater possibilities than we realize, and visualizing is one of the greatest of these powers. Genevieve Behrend
Nothing can prevent your picture from coming into concrete form excpet the same power which gave it birth-you. Genevieve Behrend
Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions. Albert Einstein
Whatever the mind…can conceive it can acheive. W. Clement Stone
The good news is that the moment you decide that what you know is more important than what you have been taught to believe, you will have shifted gears in your quest for abundance. Success comes from within, not from without. Ralph Waldo Emerson
January 15, 2010 This New Moon Solar Eclipse in Capricorn is to help us learn more about our selves and what we want out of life. Developing our own personal faith will help to sustain us while we are evolving and becoming the person we wish to be. It will enable us to maintain important personal values while eliminating worn out beliefs that hinder our growth.
Know what’s really exhausting? STRUGGLE — The fucking Struggle!
LIVE YOUR LIFE JUST AS IT FEELS FIT TO YOUR VALUES!
without judgment on of the obstacles – challenges – choices – vanity – feelings that may occur in your life.
SERIOUSLY… LIVE MY LIFE! That’s all I have to do… and anything that I want…ask for it and do what I need to do to RECEIVE It.. which first just means to ASK!
SO—- LIVE LIFE! Painting and Making Art – - This really is my DREAM – FUCK!!
I easily afford this lifestyle! Creating my ideal life is my work/my job and It is possible to create it on my own terms! I enjoy my life more and more every day – YEAH!!!
It’s January 11, 2010 – so many people are saying how powerful 2010 is going to be – how powerful it already has been!!
I made an intention on January 1 to find a part time job by Jan 12 and I did it! Now, I have a few other part time job leads to follow up with as well as some potential creative opportunities as an artist! It feels really good to be seeing the results of all of the work that I’m doing! It just takes time, patience and perseverance …among other things!!
I know one of the reasons I’ve been able to stay on track is because of the 100 Day Reality Challenge. Co-Creating Our Reality (CCOR) is a global community (125 countries) putting the law of attraction and other universal laws to the test.
