twists & turns on the path lead to my higher self…

Its been one year since I left New York City to discover the next place I am to call home as well as to travel and share Magic Passion Love! If you have been following me, you will have seen that I am living on Tybee Island, Ga. This was the 2nd place that I visited last spring and I’ve chosen to stay to spend another summer here. I am working with a friend, Denise Elliot-Vernon who has become a creative partner as well! Denise is an amazing artist who has been living & working as an artist on Tybee for the last 16 years, she’s raising her two teenage boys here as well!! She is re-opening the Dragonfly Art Studio on the island with the owners (Sunni & Steve) who live in Virginia Beach.

For the past few months, Denise with the help of many friends has been getting the little yellow building ready for the summer business. I have been working here as well as the studio artist and the inspiration that I am receiving here is amazing. Its been a time of solitude except for the occasional visit with my island friends, however, I would say I spend most of my time alone … and its because of this time alone, that I have begun to really hear & listen to the many angels & spirit guides that are with me (have always been with me!)

I just finished reading Sonia Choquette’s’ ASK YOUR GUIDES book where she discusses all of the Guides we have at our disposal to ask for help! There are the Arch Angels (like Michael, Gabriel) and there are healer angels, runner angels, teacher guides, nature guides and we have our HIGHER SELF. The Higher Self is that part of you that is closest to the “universal spirit energy” – it is Higher Self that shines when you ALLOW FEEL LIVE your MAGIC PASSION LOVE!!

Ever since I’ve been “traveling” (we are all traveling, all in different ways, this might be a different blog post!!)… anyways, back to what’s been happening since I’ve been traveling … and spending so much time alone is that I HAVE HAD TO COMMUNICATE MORE WITH MY HIGHER SELF! And to TRUST what its telling me.

Last summer when I was on the beach, I kept hearing over and over again, If you Trust in the belief & power of your Magic Passion Love, everything you need will be taken care of. This means, where I will sleep, what I will eat, how I will earn money, how my expenses will be paid, who will be my friends, who my romantic partner will me, who will be my clients, where I will go …. all I need to do is take DAILY ACTION to put myself and my work out there!!

Now have I been doing this?! I would say about 60% of the time I do … the other 40% is a mixture of 30% downtime because this is important and the 10% is FROZEN TIME!! I am one of those people that the moment I experience a success, I FREEZE in FEAR! This used to happen a lot in the 90s when I first moved to NYC. I had a poem published in this really cool collection of other NYC artists and then I didn’t write anything again in years!!! I recognize this habit in me and over the last few years, I was able to catch myself and not over book myself to be able to stay moving in a steady stream. However, these past few months, I have found myself a little frozen which is ironic because this was the first winter that I actually wasn’t freezing because of the WEATHER!!!

Now its Springtime and we are almost ready to “officially re-open” the Dragonfly and I am feeling a little nervous about what is going to happen this summer. Everyone tells me that its going to be great and the people are going to love us,etc… however what is it that I’m actually offering them?!

We are here to serve. This is what so many spiritual teachers tell us — we are here to serve. We also know that we teach what we need to learn … so I ask myself as I write this … am I ready to teach what it really is that I need to learn?! That is pretty scary to really admit what it is that I need to learn most … because it is that deep dark secret that I’ve been trying to hide for years. Its too hard to keep it as a secret anymore.

My deep dark secret is that I’m a little (used to be A LOT) terrified of Love- being loved & loving someone.

Yes, I can honestly say that I SPIRITUALLY love all humans because of the mere fact that I see them as spiritual beings choosing to be HUMAN… and this is something that is so awe-inspiring that you can’t help but love any physical being choosing to be human. Some of them are resisting their spirits and this can be disappointing however, we all know that everyone is doing the best “they” can be doing… and if more of us who understand the spiritual connection to the human experience shares the “joy” in a non-judgmental way, more humans will awaken their consciousness.

Can I honestly say that I love myself all of the time … spiritually, yes … however, there is a small part of me that is nervous about the HUMAN LOVE between other humans. And perhaps it will always be there?! What I do know is that over this past year, I have had to receive help/ask for assistance from so many people that my small fear is going away despite my need to hold on to it.

Its the resistance that is inspiring to paint lots of HEARTS and use the word ACTIVATE MY LOVE VIBE! I’m curious to see what will happen if my LOVE VIBE is ACTIVATED … who will I attract in my life?!

What will happen if I help others Activate their Love Vibe?!

Only by activating my love vibe will I know …so here I go — ACTIVATING MY LOVE VIBE!!